Tuesday, May 08, 2007

The space-suit feeling

It sometimes comes to me that death itself can be a more distant form of participation in the continuing history of the world. A simultanous presence and absence while the presidents take the same shameful decisions & friends go on giggling over someone who is no longer you. For a period in the space of time I can imagine what it will be like to be a ghost and walk forever through a silence deeper than silence, to apprehend but never quite reach the lights of home.

7 comments:

Mindinside said...

Let's judge afterwards

Count the chicks after authum ;;)

David said...

Earth calling Space Cadet O2, over? Your signal is breaking up Space Cadet. Can you boost your signal, over?

Seriously, what's all this talk about death? Sure, sometimes life really sucks! I know all about that!

What's really happening in your life my friend? Its been a long time since you talked about your real life.

LiVEwiRe said...

Interestingly, there are many here that have the same sense of separation. Seeing what can be attained yet not being able to reach it. Poverty, disease and war are just some of the things that make that supposition/ponderance a reality now. Man would it suck to experience the same things after...

mariamusic said...

People get stcuk in grieving. I know many families in which wearing "blacks" for an year is a proud. to the degree they never wore it off!

For me, death is "the end." I don't want "aberoo" when I'm not there!

mariamusic said...

you've gone pretty quiet Dr, O2.

Hope the "Sarbaazi" is not too harsh on you. I know those places to do your "duty" are not the most pleasant ones.

Do you see many patients?

jarvenpa said...

Dear Dr, what a deep and poignant post this is. Let's hope for good parties after we die, or enlightenment, or maybe reasons for all we have gone through.
And for now, living, hey, let's do the best we can.
I hope you are well.

Dr O2 said...

mindinside - yep. We shall see :-)

David - life is very deperessing at the moment I am at full mental defensive mechanism power at this stage and a single drop more can break my damn dam of tolerance. When I float in deperssion my cord sail in the dark space! Nothing to worry about. I am coping with it!

Livewire - yeah it is a common sense even a blind-hearted like me sometimes trips into such thoughts. Life is a very weird field!

Mariam - thanks buddy. It is really breaking me! My pride, my ambitions and my life are all falling apart! :-S


jarvenpa - yeah. That is all we have in hand after all :-) it is scarey to think of death but without it life won't mean much!
Sorry for the delay on the post you asked me to do. I will try my best to get at it. I am very short of internet access.